[ The case studies are not here to illustrate soul connections but to demonstrate the power of personal healing and transformation using Ptsen Nuh metaphysical techniques.
In some cases, but not all, the persons need for healing was triggered by a soul connection however in these articles case studies we do not look at the relationship aspects or if they got back together – we focus on the individuals’ healing and transformation.
If you want to know about a soul connection you will not find out about it from anyone else’s story even if they seem similar because every situation so unique thats why we don’t feature the stories .. Soul connection articles on the general issues and principles can be found here but to find about about your own unique situation it needs to looked at individually which can only come from an individual consultation.]
As with every soul connection the situations vary, but the dynamics are all the same. I wanted to share my story because like everyone else, one of my few comforts was knowing I was not alone or going crazy. I constantly felt that way. I had no way to “make sense” of it but came to see it happens to other people and more importantly, it’s REAL….
It’s fun to recount the bits and pieces that brought me to the place I am now. When I look back on meeting my soul connection everything fit together like a puzzle and it’s amazing what the universe was up to! Synchronicity everywhere, always!
We met in 2004. A girlfriend wanted me to accompany her to a bar to be her sidekick in case the guy she was meeting up with didn’t work out. This guy she was meeting also brought along his best friend, who was my soul connection. We were having drinks, he introduced himself and didn’t stop talking to me the whole night. The guy would not let up. I was skeptical. I was usually pretty reserved with people I just met then, but not him. I WANTED to be open with him and I had never been that way before. I knew this meant something, but thought if anything I could always use more friends. He was so open, very smart, genuine, really bizarre sense of humor which I loved. I was the only one that would laugh at his really weird jokes. I just kept thinking what does this guy want from me?
He lived in another town and was home visiting for the holidays and asked for my number. We would talk almost every night for ridiculous amounts of time. He would tell me all the time how he felt. That there was something about me and I was the coolest person he’d ever met in his life. We talked about anything and everything which again, was very unusual for me, but I felt comfortable with him. He was going through a really hard time in his life and I was the one person he could confide in. Considering he is not the type of person who shares his feelings with just anyone, I felt honored and did whatever I could to help. Money was tight and he was at the lowest point he’d ever been. Told me he was moving back to his home town because he couldn’t find a job, but let me know it wasn’t because of me that he was moving back, it was because it was best for him….
He found a job quickly and we spent tons of time together. He would tell me he must of done something right in life to deserve someone like me. It was the one year anniversary of meeting that he proposed. It was a exciting time, but everything with us happened fast. I wanted to finish school before we got married and he wondered why wait? A little over a year of being engaged something really traumatic happened and that was the beginning of him slipping away. I wanted to make sure he knew whatever it was, no matter how terrible we would make it through. But I didn’t know how to help because he wouldn’t talk to me. I didn’t know how to handle it because he didn’t want to deal with anything emotional. I would shut down and get very depressed and frustrated with his ego. This was a big struggle for the rest of our relationship, but the love was always there, so I thought it would pass. I felt awful he was in so much pain. But what could I do? The more time went on, he became the center of his universe and I was just the part the would always be there.
Towards the end, we were very distant and unhappy. I was depressed and wanted to die because the person I loved wasn’t there anymore and didn’t even want to try. He was distracting himself with all kinds things and all I wanted to do was talk to him. He never had enough time, always busy. It always disturbed me, but that’s how he dealt with it. So one day, I told him that I was thinking I should live on my own before we got married. He got very angry, then became numb and wouldn’t talk to me. I tried, but he had given up. He didn’t talk to me for a week while I cried my eyes out and couldn’t sleep for days. Finally, he talked to me face to face and said we did not have a future, blamed everything on me. I was holding him back. WHAT?! How could he say that? The one person who was there for him through thick and thin. I was devastated. Nothing I said or did was good enough. He couldn’t look at me. My heart crumbled in a million pieces. It brought out feelings of pain I didn’t even know I had! But I protested that I didn’t want to give up, that it did not feel right. He gave me a chance to “prove myself” that things would be different and I clung onto hope for dear life!
We kept in brief contact during this period. Trying to get all my things after breaking up was a nightmare. He would try to CONTROL whatever he could while I experienced the whole thing with confusion and despair. I didn’t even know who he was anymore, I lost my best friend. At that point, he was moving to be closer to a new job. He remained detached, almost unaware, while trying to be decent. I just wanted to get my stuff and get away from him, but I couldn’t shake this feeling. I just knew something wasn’t right. I knew this was a test. What was happening?? How could he do this? WHY was he doing this?!! WHERE is HE??? I couldn’t believe this. It was surreal, I was in a fog. The pain I felt was immense, not to mention I felt like a complete nutcase. My family and friends were no help either. I would get so angry and tell myself to get over it, but I couldn’t…..
It was around this time, for whatever reason, I came across Steve’s “Soul Shock” article and thought nothing else is helping so why not? I already felt I went over the edge anyway, what’s the difference? It certainly would not hurt anything, so I contacted him. I have never done anything like that before and it changed my life forever.
Every time I would finally try let go, my soul connection would call or text me on our anniversary, because he was bored, or to tell me he just wanted to be friends but doesn’t want me to go away. It’s the “don’t-leave-me-your-too-important-but-I-can’t-be-with-you” game. I have tried twice now to set boundaries and the poor guy just doesn’t understand I’m serious, until he senses I’m not around. It’s like his soul automatically panics and wonders where I am. I have tried to warn him, ask him to follow his heart, guide him–but even now he still resists knowing the truth.
When I found Steve, I just knew I had been right all along, that my instincts were there for a reason, and I wasn’t nuts. Thank God for Steve! The Ptsen-Nuh work he has taught me and the trauma he has helped me through has been wonderful and I never thought I would be at this place. It takes work and discipline. LOTS of it, believe me!!!! But I am constantly getting stronger, learning more, and healing more everyday! I feel content and happy. TRULY HAPPY!
I’ve had so many amazing, frightening, fascinating experiences! There was a time I seriously thought I was ready to send myself to a mental hospital and times I cried big, blubbery tears of relief and joy that this happened to me. I’ve learned a HUGE amount in such a short period of time. My awareness, my connection to the universe is lovely. It’s really awesome when you find out the things you thought were true your whole life actually ARE true. It can happen for you too, I am sure of that. My main goal and reason for writing this is to provide inspiration, support, and encouragement for people who are in the same boat! And if sharing my little story helps just one person it still makes all the difference in the world. You are not alone. Be strong baby! Have faith. You will see.
As for my soul connection, I recently told him this cycle could no longer continue. I have to let him go. He was upset, but I think the reality hit him this time. I heard emotion in his voice for the first time in a long time. He let himself FEEL. That’s a start. I feel the same way I always have, of course. He’s a part of me and affects me on a level like no one else. He is like home. I love him with all my heart and soul, unconditionally. Always. That will never change. But I have a peaceful acceptance I didn’t have before. Maybe the third time is the charm. I’ve done all I can do. I know how to deal with it. He knows it exists. I have to let the universe handle the rest.
….and what a relief that is!! 🙂
MUCH love and luck to you on your journey!
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