[ The case studies are not here to illustrate soul connections but to demonstrate the power of personal healing and transformation using Ptsen Nuh metaphysical techniques.
In some cases, but not all, the persons need for healing was triggered by a soul connection however in these articles case studies we do not look at the relationship aspects or if they got back together - we focus on the individuals' healing and transformation.
If you want to know about a soul connection you will not find out about it from anyone else's story even if they seem similar because every situation so unique thats why we don't feature the stories .. Soul connection articles on the general issues and principles can be found here but to find about about your own unique situation it needs to looked at individually which can only come from an individual consultation.]
Michelle was inspired from reading some of the case studies and has kindly submitted her story to share, in the hope that she can inspire others..
In her own words- Michelle’s Story
This is a long story which I am writing in the hopes that it will illustrate how absolutely incredible this soul connection phenomenon is, and that it will help another going through this exceptionally difficult process to know that you will come through it with an amazing sense of peace and tranquility and be in awe of God and his Universe.
I met my soul connection in August 2006. We had both just joined a new boat for work. The very first time I became aware of him, a group of us crew had been allowed ashore for a visit in Siciliy, upon waiting for a tender to take us back to our boat, I was standing amongst other crew when I noticed a man sitting in the wrong place waiting for the same tender. My first instinct was this overwhelming feeling to run to him – which surprised me, I hadn’t even met him properly yet! Over the next two months, we became very friendly. There was a definite and immediate connection between the two of us. Before long, he decided he had feelings for me, and tried to pursue a relationship with me. Me, on the other hand, had a ton of issue’s regarding relationships, especially relationships on boats! The first time he kissed me, I was astounded – it was the most beautiful kiss I had ever experienced, it felt so right and literally made my knee’s go weak. I had never felt this before and I’d never felt such a strong connection to another person before. It scared the hell out of me, so I legged it, as far as I could.
However, the two of us were stuck together on 115 m’s of boat, which traveled all over the world and had 50 other crew on it, there wasn’t very far that I could run too! He, of course, could not understand why I didn’t want to give us a chance and why I kept pushing him away. Since he wasn’t giving up and following me around, persisting on knocking on my cabin door etc, I eventually lost my cool at him and told him to leave me alone. He still did not give up, so I went to his boss and told his boss that he was stalking me and I needed him to leave me alone. Poor guy!! I was not being very nice and he was utterly confused. We seemed to be so good together.
Little did I know what was too come later. The irony is incredible…
His boss informed him that he was to stay clear of me as much as he could given the environment we were living in. The day I did this, I remember feeling so overwhelmingly sad, and puzzling over why I was feeling so sad, if I really felt that he was not right for me.
For the next few months my connection, whom I shall call John, was exceptionally polite to me around the boat, but he no longer pursued a relationship with me. He did leave the occasional sweet gift outside my cabin door.
As the months passed I became increasingly unhappy onboard and wanted to resign. Each time I tried to resign, something happened to prevent me from doing so. Not little things either, things that almost seemed beyond my control. One particular incident lead to me having to fly home and stay on sick leave for a while. During this time, John sent me an email asking me why I was pushing him away like I was. I came out with all the excuses that runner’s come out with. “not ready”, it’s not you, it’s me, don’t want a relationship etc. you know the story. He later told me that during this time of my ‘running’ phase, he just felt he needed to be with me.
I came back to our boat recovered from my operation and went about life onboard. At the end of November 2007 I decided I wanted an angel card reading (somehow over the previous year I had become very into angels and cards and other spiritually natured things). The reading I got stated that I was about to meet a soul mate who would become a spouse and we would have a son and the reader managed to give me the sound of this person’s name. I was told that I was not to let my past inhibit my response to this man as he was my future. I put the reading away thinking how lovely that would be and forgot about it.
1 week later, somehow, I still do not know exactly how it came about, but it was a surprise and one I was NOT expecting, but John and I got together. It was an incredible time, it happened slowly and sweetly and by the end of January I was very much in love with him. I remember thinking ‘so this is why I was stopped from resigning!”
We were happy. The other crew onboard were happy to see us together after watching the struggle that John had gone through to get to where we were. He went home on holiday for a month and during this time I was clearing out my emails and found the angel card reading I’d forgotten about. I was stunned, that the reading had described this person, even the sound of his name, and it was John all the way down. How had I not noticed this before!? To me, reading that card reading again, just confirmed that I had finally found the right man and I could finally let myself love and be loved. Everything was safe and right and had even been confirmed by angels. I felt a happiness I had never experienced before and couldn’t believe I’d robbed myself of 18 months of happiness before by pushing him so far away.
Months went on and we got closer and closer, and it seemed – very in love. About 4 months into the relationship, I began to get cold feet and started doing little things subconsciously to sabotage it. One day, John had had enough and gave me an earful – telling me that my fear was getting in the way, and it was my fear that was trying to ruin the relationship and that he would not put up with it, so I had to make a choice, to let go of the fear or he was going to walk. I chose to let go of the fear and from that night on, we seemed to reach a higher level of happiness. What is so ironic is all the things he said to me that night, where all the things he experienced him self a few months later, only to hear his own words said back to him by me! A few weeks later, whilst I was at home celebrating my 30th birthday without him, he sent a parcel and flowers to me, inside the parcel was a beautiful stone with the words TRUST engraved on it. He wrote that he had felt guided to that stone and felt it was meant for me.
All the while this was going on, I had this nagging voice telling me to resign. A few things happened as well at the time, which literally compelled me to take the plunge and resign. I was nervous because I was afraid of what it would do to John and I, but I felt since the angels guided me to trust that this man was my future, I decided to follow the nagging voice and resign.
Him and I discussed this and decided it was the right thing for me to do. At that point we weren’t sure when he would resign or what we would do thereafter but there was no reason, or talk of us ending our relationship. In fact we made a few plans for the next 5 months or so.
With everything in order I handed in my notice. One night 5 days later, whilst in our cabin, John told me that he didn’t feel ready for where our relationship was going and felt it had to end. I was in shock. What??? I didn’t believe him. Even when we woke up the next morning and he packed his bags and left on a tender to go home for his holidays without me, I didn’t believe him.
What followed was the torturous agony that if you are reading this, you will know all too well – absolute disbelief, devastation, confusion and utter turmoil. It was heartbreaking for both of us. I went home to my home country an absolute mess. He was a mess, both of us hurting so much. He kept telling me that there was something, just something that was holding him back. Fellow crew members told me days after he left, how surprised they were as he had been talking about marrying me just days before. Our families and friends were confused. To almost everyone else around us, the two of us seemed perfect for each other, so very similar and just right together. For the life of me I just could not understand why someone who claimed to love me so much which I sincerely believed to be true, had left me. Nothing made sense at all anymore.
Over the next few months, we would speak over the phone long distance, him back on the boat we were once on together, and me with my family. Tears and tears across oceans, long conversations where neither of us wanted to say good-bye. Arg, pain that I never knew existed. I kept trying to get answers out of him he couldn’t give me. I was in such a state, I landed up being sent away to a retreat for a while to try and recover. I came out feeling a whole lot better and 3 weeks later, it all came crashing down on me again. I was later to discover that the intense emotion’s I was feeling were not just mine, but his too. He had big things going on at the time which I knew nothing about.
I couldn’t eat, couldn’t work, sleep etc. I was literally unable to function. Eventually we saw each other after 7 months apart. It was lovely to see him again and it seemed like there was still so much feeling between us. We spent a few days together, and I was happy, thinking that maybe he had come to his senses and we would get back together. I was SO wrong. He called me up and told me he didn’t think we should see each other any more, and then told me he wanted me to leave him alone and he wanted no further contact with me.
What followed for me after that, was the darkest time of my life so far. I was in a country away from my family, I had to find a new job and adjust to live ashore and I also had no idea what was happening to me, why I couldn’t just get over him, what all the crazy emotions I was experiencing were, and of course, the question WHY? Was it me, what had I done? Was I just the worst girlfriend in the world? All of those destructive questions that tear you apart. I felt betrayed not only by him, but also by my beloved angels, whom I believed had lied to me with their ‘ he’s your future etc’ reading. I was angry and hurt. I began contacting psychics trying to figure out what the hell was happening to me. It lead to an expensive addiction that lasted about 3 months. I got all the same answers – he’s your soulmate, you will be together etc… which inevitably hurt me even more when I never heard from him and nothing happened. I lost a job I had finally found after two months and I was having very strange spiritual experiences, voices talking to me, psychic experiences etc. I honestly thought I was going crazy and at one point considered asking to be put into a psychiatric hospital.
I was scared by all this and scared for myself. My family and friends were worried and couldn’t understand why I was such a mess. I got all the ‘pull yourself together’, ‘he’s not worth it’, ‘get over it’, ‘there’s plenty of fish in the sea’ etc which I must say did not help!
I found Steve Gunn’s site after begging for an answer from above. As I read through all his articles, slowly things made sense but I was still resistant to believing and accepting that what I was experiencing was a soul connection. I kept fighting it. I wanted it all to go away. I didn’t understand the pull to him I was feeling, I didn’t understand how I could still feel so much love for someone who abandoned me so quickly and seemed to have lied to me about loving me. I ached physically and walked around permanently nauseous. I could barely brush my teeth without throwing up. I cried endlessly, started drinking heavily, I was so lost I eventually took a plane back to my home country and family in more of a state than I was the last time I’d come home.
I was desperate to heal but somehow I just wasn’t healing, I went to spiritual healers, reiki, you name it, I tried it. I was being pulled all over the show, I could feel that man so much it drove me crazy, sometimes I felt I could even hear his thoughts and I dreamt about him continuously. I bought Steve’s book eventually and decided I needed to heal once and for all. What made me realize that what I was experiencing was real, was that I had gone off Potatoes, pasta, couldn’t handle the booze or the hangovers anymore, and couldn’t bare sugary stuff anymore, and was wondering about this, when a little voice said to me, go and read Steve’s site. I did. There was an article he’d written on post spiritual awakening intolerances. Then I knew. I contacted Steve and set up a time to do his PN process.
WOW. That process was incredible. The entire journey has been incredible. Through this soul connection I have learnt an enormous amount. I have become exceptionally spiritually aware, I have finally looked at many big issues in my life and have started to address them. It’s almost like this connection has forced me to clear out all of my junk, empty me out once and for all so I can be happy with who I am and appreciate the experiences life has given me for all that was learnt from them. With Steve’s help, I went through all the principles slowly, clearing what I needed too, I still have a way to go, but the peaceful feeling I have now, and the way I am looking at life and the universe, God and all the other wonderful things life has to offer, and best of all how I feel about myself – has made this entire crazy, painful journey worth it!
I never thought I would get through this, there were times when I literally thought I was going to die of a broken heart, but since I’ve began stopping my ego from preventing me being happy inside, I’ve found some peace and there is NO way I want to go back.
If you are feeling this horrible, torturous pull and are so confused, in pain and you feel like you are dying, if you feel so betrayed by God, Universe or whom ever you believe in, take heed, it’s going to be alright, you are going to be alright and happy again. I used to cry and go down on my knee’s begging God to take this pain away and help me, I asked why this was happening to me 1000 x a day and felt like I was getting no answers. I felt deserted. I lost faith in life, in love, in myself. I didn’t want to carry on living if this was how I was going to feel forever.
After 16 months of unrelenting agony, once I began the PN process an understanding crept over me, and a very deep respect for the universe also. I now see why I had to go through this, and for the first time in my life, I can honestly say that I have experienced true unconditional love and I know I am going to be perfectly fine, without the relationship with my soul connection because I finally have found happiness and peace within myself.
I am still continuing the PN disciplines and will continue to do so from now on. I highly recommend PN! It takes a lot of discipline and the early parts are not easy, but the rewards are greatJ If your anything like I was, you won’t mind the discipline one bit when you see how different you start feeling.
I wish you all the best on your journey, and I hope that somehow my long story has helped.
Michelle
